hospitalllll , again .

im back in the hospital :( i know total bummer ! but im just sticking in here and trying to fight off this thing for good by saturday. why saturday you may ask, well you see my boyfriend's (teeeeee)prom is saturday. im so excited to go but i feel like im ruining everrrythhhhing :/ hes the best though hes always by my side when things get a little rough like this. love him. anyways idk how im typing because im sooo drugged up i can barely smile or look normal lol ill post pictures of my beautiful food and face and fun stufff today is maraface's birthday ! i was gonna bring her goodies but unfortunetly i am not able to LEAVE :( its okay though she will be getting those right after i get outtt lol. steriods are kicking my butt right now, im so weak. but i really dont care i just want to get better and be able to go home by saturday.

i have to get ready for prom here in the hospital bc my last treatment is at 3 on saturday . but thank heaven my cousin steph is a hair dresser and is coming over on saturday to help me with my hair, and tame my eyebrows, and all that good stuff so i feel a little bit bettter about this whole thing.

have a good thrusday (: ps yes im back on lol i was locked out of my account for a while ! but im back for goood


^^^bengiiii (: my son , of course hes here lol

^^^sorry about the puffyness and my eyes look crazy im very DRAINED !

^^^lovely breafasss , and my applejuice tower (its in the works) and the tee monster brought me my fun teas (arizona half mango half ice tea & peace tea, love the can so cute and meeee)

^^^worst iv spot everrrrrrr ! AHHHHH -___-

easter yesterday

yesterday was easter and i got this adorable bunny with a k on it from mara arada (: oh she is so cute i know ! i loved easter lol , and my dress was supaaa cute for only 12 dollaaaaa ! go get it , ill post pictures of it later this weeek .

so me and tee went to the beach on saturday together (: so cute , our first little "road trip" as we called it . he even let me bury him ! well anyways went i was laying down he was throwing sand on me and a shell hit me in my eye lol i threw it back at him and he caught it and looked at it...it was special it had a little hole in it so he gave it back so i could put it on my wraist ! and i did seee



randonesss ^^^

spring break is next week and i will be TEE-less , so sad but i hope he has fuuun (: im gonna try and work alot so i ont miss him...or go to the beach everyday ! i havent decided yet lol

iimmm aliveee (:

back and bettter then ever ! ♥ sorry for the little break away from blogging

anyways so today i finally got my giveaway in the mail that i won (: so fun ! love it , heres some pictures lol .


^theres more but thats just my favorites from it lol .


i cant get enought of icing today lol , ive been licking it offf big spoons and watching lovelovelove movies !

CALLOFDUTY: oh how i hate your guts .

okay so boys are obsessed with call of duty so much that im getting ditched...so my boyfriend can go to his frieands house to play, hung up on at night...bc im ruining his kill streak , and ignored...when im basically throwing myself infront of the tv .
ITS HORRIBLE ! anyways, me and michelle (my bfffff) have decided to buy an xbox and get a millllion times better than all the boyfriends in the world and then they will be so embarrassed that we beat them that they will never play again ! (: so if you fall under this catgory ,aka "girlfriends who wish there boyfriends spent more time with them and less with the controller", then try your hardest to over power them on there whatever kill streak or team death match or whatever lol

tomorrow is good friday , so im going to the beachhh to get baptisted in the holy beach water ! jk thats really messed up , but for real im going to the beach (: i really wanna go to chruch at night but i think tee works so we will have to seee .

until tomorrow , i love youuu goodnight ♥

♥ :(

hello , i will not be blogging for a couple days. sorry, need to fix my life before i can blog again. have a good day.

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youve got mail

got penpal mail (: cant wait to write back.
anyways today i didnt go to school again bc im still very weak and sick and this really sucks. prom is in two months and im freaking out bc i want to start looking but i cant bc im still not back to my normalness :/ i really dont want june to come though...ill tell you why if you promise not to tell! okay well i had this dream and it was june (which is the month my tee ♥ graduates plus our two years is four days before that) and it was graduation and i saw tee and he saw me and he mouthed i love you and then i was in the stands watching them walk out and i couldnt move and they were getting farther and farther and i was trying to run after them but nothing...
i dont want him to leave high school, its something we both have together. something weve always done together and next year ill have to do it alone. we wont be able to meet by his locker, we wont eat lunch together, he wont come peaking in my classes lol. we wont do the things weve done for two years now. i know we'll make it through it till after high school but the thought of him graduating and leaving makes me cry on site and its really bad. idk why, i guess i just dont do well with change, i just hope not that much changes too quickly. i love you ♥

random talking day :]

okay so i dont really have much to say today because i stayed home because im just never well anymore! im ALWAYS sick yes this is true but lets hope by the time april 14th comes around ill be cured!

anyways im just going to post random facts that are on my mind (:
here goes nothing
1. i hate mariah carey she is my second fear in life
2. my boyfriend didnt leave his truck here tonight & i thought he got kidnapped earlier
3. i hate my phone so i contantly drop it on accident...
4. mtv is not the same as it was in the 80s & 90s as everyone says, i wish i could watch it back then and judge for myself
5. my nails need to be cut dowwwnnnn
6. my balloons are still staying strong from when i got them about a month & a half ago in the hospital!
7. im terrified that my boss is only going to give me weekend shifts...
8. my walls and roof have rainbows on them but if you lay long enough you'll see other stuff like lava lamps and trees and stuff!
9. i almost always fall asleep after tee and it makes me mad !
10. ziggy is really mean lately and i wish he could talk and tell me whats wrong!
11. eleven would be my favorite noumber since i was in the second grade

i finalllly won!

yay lol so today is just a normal day. i woke up and decided to go looking at the blogs i follow and i come across pixies and bears and realize that i was the winner for her last giveaway! how neat. anyways, its just really cute stuff like rva prints and alice and wonderland stuff. im so excited i never thought i would actually win anything lol.


well off to go do saturday stuff and work at five. im kinda disappointed bc i wanted to go out today and have fun but im stuck going to work , i guess this is a part of growing up!
welll byeeeee ♥

^^^i toook this picture at work lol love gelato now.